I don't care about my life

[Ironwave]

I called the numbers, but didn't help. I am getting very low, I almost committed suicide today. Can't any longer. I live alone, have bills, rent, I am broke and don't have enough for food to eat, I eat bread only or slices of sweet cheese, sometimes I eat nothing. Been out of a job for 7 months now. I am not even enjoying the summer.

[sleeper323]

Try those phone numbers again, brother. Maybe the next person you speak to may be able to light your spark. That person may be a better help to you. Never give up. Sometimes you need to be in complete darkness before you can see the light.

[shockwave555]

Originally Posted by Ironwave

I called the numbers, but didn't help. I am getting very low, I almost committed suicide today. Can't any longer. I live alone, have bills, rent, I am broke and don't have enough for food to eat, I eat bread only or slices of sweet cheese, sometimes I eat nothing. Been out of a job for 7 months now. I am not even enjoying the summer.

hey man, if this is the lowest that means you can only go up. just sit outside and watch the clouds or sun to relax yourself. just don't ever go back to suicide. we are a community, a family, and we got your back

[Pgianos]

Bro walk into the nearest ER room and tell them
What you told us

[Ironwave]

Been to the ER a few months ago, never going back there, stayed there the whole night. They didn't do nothing

[Hellboy]

Seriously, Man. You are suffering from an emotional imbalance obviously caused by an illness. Don't let the illness take control of your decisions. It would appear it has already taken so much from you so don't let it go any further.
You say that you are a fighter, so fight. There are medications to get you back on track. Check yourself into a rehab or just go to a hospital and talk to someone in emerge.
Do not give in to the voice telling you to accept defeat and that there is no way out of your darkness. There is a way out. There is always a way out. Always.
Get help.

Call 911 and ask for help. Tell them that you have been contemplating suicide and can't seem to find anyone to help. They will have all the places to put you in touch with.

Have you looked through this?
http://acsmmontreal.qc.ca

[supermanTF]

Call 911 - NOW life will only be worse with you leaving it. Things are tough right now but fight through. I've been there and you NED to fight...

[CobraCommander]

Yes listen to those that have been in your situation and call for help. Also if you haven't already tried, check for a local foodbank, there is no shame on getting help with food.

[Ironwave]

Food banks? they usually have nothing and I would not go there, they usually ask for money. I am going to sell all my collections: All my hockey cards collection, Transformer toy (the ones I have), Transformers Comics, Ninja Turtles toys, DVD collection: Montreal Canadiens (greatest matches box set), G1 Cartoons DVD as well as Headmasters, The Godfather DVD Box Set.

[elburrito]

Why not try a local church?